IT'S TIME TO DO ME

I decided a couple of weeks ago to have a talk with God about my weight. I humbled myself and asked him for his help. I was tired of feeling emotionally drained and disappointed. I was tired of riding on the "weight loss roller coaster." I lose 5lbs then I gained it back, juggling between the same 5 to 8 lbs. I don't really understand why I don't have any self discipline. Why is it so hard for me to commit myself to myself? I know that I have high blood pressure & other health problems that would get better if I lost weight. I know I won't feel tired anymore. I know that my asthma will not bother me as much but yet I still can't force myself to stick to a healthier lifestyle.Those were the things I was telling & asking myself.

That was about 3 weeks ago but since then I have been feeling really bored with food. It's seems like I have been eating the same ole stuff month after month and I am so tired of it. My fridge was broken down and all the veggies, dairy and pretty much everything was freezing. God has blessed us with a new much bigger fridge with some pretty cool features and I just love the crisper doors. Now I feel like I want to go grocery shopping and buy some "live" food. Like some cucumbers or some fresh red tomatoes. It has been a long time since I have a fresh tomato that wasn't pureed up & spread in between some cheese & a buttery crust. It's been a while since I have had some fresh green grapes or bananas, two of my favorite fruits.

I came to realize that I am such a carb addict and I am raising carb addicts except my youngest twin because he loves veggies and eat them all the time. I can feel myself getting stronger each day. I can feel myself understanding how important it is for me to change my life. How important it is for my family. How important it is for me to be strong for my friend Pia. How important her dreams are to me and how important it is for me to support her. I want to show my children what being successful looks like. I want to them to know that they can achieve any goal they set for themselves. I have a lot of work to do and I am ready to do it. I am not afraid anymore I have Father on my side. I am not a CAPTIVE anymore! I AM FREE!! As the saying goes "It's time to do Me"
I LOST 10 LBS!!