IT'S TIME TO DO ME

I decided a couple of weeks ago to have a talk with God about my weight. I humbled myself and asked him for his help. I was tired of feeling emotionally drained and disappointed. I was tired of riding on the "weight loss roller coaster." I lose 5lbs then I gained it back, juggling between the same 5 to 8 lbs. I don't really understand why I don't have any self discipline. Why is it so hard for me to commit myself to myself? I know that I have high blood pressure & other health problems that would get better if I lost weight. I know I won't feel tired anymore. I know that my asthma will not bother me as much but yet I still can't force myself to stick to a healthier lifestyle.Those were the things I was telling & asking myself.

That was about 3 weeks ago but since then I have been feeling really bored with food. It's seems like I have been eating the same ole stuff month after month and I am so tired of it. My fridge was broken down and all the veggies, dairy and pretty much everything was freezing. God has blessed us with a new much bigger fridge with some pretty cool features and I just love the crisper doors. Now I feel like I want to go grocery shopping and buy some "live" food. Like some cucumbers or some fresh red tomatoes. It has been a long time since I have a fresh tomato that wasn't pureed up & spread in between some cheese & a buttery crust. It's been a while since I have had some fresh green grapes or bananas, two of my favorite fruits.

I came to realize that I am such a carb addict and I am raising carb addicts except my youngest twin because he loves veggies and eat them all the time. I can feel myself getting stronger each day. I can feel myself understanding how important it is for me to change my life. How important it is for my family. How important it is for me to be strong for my friend Pia. How important her dreams are to me and how important it is for me to support her. I want to show my children what being successful looks like. I want to them to know that they can achieve any goal they set for themselves. I have a lot of work to do and I am ready to do it. I am not afraid anymore I have Father on my side. I am not a CAPTIVE anymore! I AM FREE!! As the saying goes "It's time to do Me"
I LOST 10 LBS!!

WAY TOO TIRED!

So I decided to take spring cleaning a step forward this year by getting rid of the clutter. Not only the clutter in my space but the clutter in my mind. I am one of those persons who has a lot of mind chatter going on. Multitasking all day long. I am constantly thinking about something new and some project I want to do. Problem is I don't put enough of that energy into me. My blog is actually entitled "Finding some ME time" and honestly I am not living up to that. I haven't really focused on me like I suppose to in a long time. My work in my space is almost done..still have two rooms left. I can't believe how much stuff I own. Wow..is the only word I can use to describe it. So many fat clothes, so many fat shoes, so much stuff to let go. I just feel everything in my life right now can use a cleansing and then I can focus on my health and well being more. So as days go by I am going to continue to turn my old place into a new place and then I am going work on turning the old ME into a new ME. I deserve some ME time!

APRIL 6, 2010

I have been busying with spring cleaning for the last 2 days and I haven't really had food on my mind. I must admit I haven't been counting this week because I feel too overwhelmed. Also at the moment mother nature is over to visit which doesn't make matters any better. On the bright side I am not shoving a lot of junk in my mouth and I am moving around tons. I am avoiding the scale at the moment because I know that it will be a total distraction. Once spring cleaning is all done I plan on starting a personal video blog. I think it would be helpful for me. It's time for me to start thinking more about myself and doing what's best for me.